Where does the time go?

I keep meaning to post here and update those who are interested, but it seems like I just never get to it. I think it's going to have to be like exercise; something I put on my to-do list.

So went to WW yesterday and after missing last week's meeting I gained 0.4 pounds. Which is a blip. I probably would have maintained if I hadn't had a cup of coffee here before I went to the meeting, but dammit, I was up way early and I needed the jolt. It'll be off next week though, and I'm close to getting another refrigerator magnet for 50 pounds down (currently at 46). Should be sometime in March for that.

There's actually a lot on my mind these days, which is partly why I haven't been posting as much. I'm trying to organize it in my head. My kids are growing up; A's already 18 and graduating in June, and T is right behind her in a year, and then what? I so don't want to be one of those women who lives through and for her children, partly because it's not fair to them (the kids) and partly because I suspect those women don't get laid. Which is an activity that I've enjoyed in the past (if memory serves) and I'd like to participate in again. The problem there, though, is where/how to meet people when you're in your 40s? It used to be so easy, but not anymore. I don't have a lot of friends locally, so mutual acquaintances is not working out real well. And as much as I like bars (some of my best stories happen in bars), I've never really been one to go to a bar with the specific intention of meeting someone. Online dating scares me a bit, but it may be my best option. At this point, though, I'm not comfortable enough with my readiness to meet someone who might potentially see me naked to go that route. I do feel that I look a lot better than I did in July when I went to WW, and I no longer only see how far I have to go, so focusing on the positive is becoming more automatic, it's just not all the way there yet.

Anyway, I'm contemplating my future plans. I've been single for more than 7 years now, and while it hasn't killed me, it's certainly not the way I want to spend the rest of my life.

What I'm reading right now: I'm Currently reading Visions in Death which is the 22nd (if you count the novellas, 20th if not) in the In Death Series by Nora Roberts writing as J. D. Robb. Three more books to go after this one, and I'll have accomplished the mission that I set for myself to re-read them all in a row with no gaps. In the meantime, my TBR pile is growing by leaps and bounds. I have some serious catching up to do.